Strenth.
Usually, I pull crafty things from StumbleUpon for my entries. Tonight is different.
Tonight, I picked myself up, brushed myself off, and climbed on top of the world.
Well … at least, that’s what it feels like. ;)
Years ago, I’d still be upset. I would probably cry, ask, “WHY?”, cry some more, and go to bed. But tonight … tonight I cried, I stared off into space, in a room by myself. I closed my eyes and took some deep breaths. That was when I realized something.
I am incredibly blessed.
I am able to breathe in fresh, clean air. I have running water. I have indoor plumbing. I have a roof over my head. I have a fantastic, great-paying job. I have God’s amazing gift of a child. I have found “The One”, without a doubt in my mind. I have a wonderful, gracious, loving, supportive family. My friends are like the stars - each one unique, and lots of ‘em. Above all, I’m so happy I could pee my pants if I wanted to. :)
With each thought that crossed my mind, the dirt began to roll off my shoulders. I went to the mirror, wiped my eyes, and took a good, hard look at myself.
I have been through a lot, I have learned a lot. I have loved a lot, and I have lost a lot. Because of these things, I have developed into the strong, independent woman that I am today. I may not be invincible, and I may be human — but dammit, I’m a survivor.
The harsh words actually made me thankful — they showed me just how happy I was. I know I would never say half of those things, but a truly miserable person would. I thank the Lord that I am not one of those people.
So here’s to smiling. Loving. Listening. Passion. Standing in the rain. Running with the iPod on the loudest setting. Concentrating. Focusing. Laughing. Playing.
Here’s to life.
